Rocks are not people.

AAARGGGH.


dancing. is not. my thing.

how i wish i could glide and sway and pop, like how dancers do but i do not. i overcompensate with my weight and fall over. you'll get a nice waltz or cha-cha if you're lucky, (appearantly i have very good hips) thats fine its not like "west-side story" type dancing (think of "cool" and pretty much all of that) here. have a vid.

start at 1:43




and yes. that is pretty much what we learned today. I am not kidding.

and so right now i am eating blueberries watching District 9 in my jim-jams, with my roomie while she does homework.

I'm doing hoomework tomorrow!

so far my favorite classes are my film class and my vocal lesson. metalsmithing would be more fun if it was more like. . .not in the morning. . . even if it is at ten. . . =]

but my vocal lesson is def in my top list. I'm learnging two songs from the drowsy chaperone, (I'm an accedent waiting to happen, and I don't want to show off) and "Being Alive" from "Company" (wow! does that go HIGH!) so I'm really excited! they're longer songs that i really enjoy. =]

i like singing in the play. it's just some of the dancing that gets me.

i've been really hungry lately. I'm not sure why. oh. maybe because the market doesn't serve any food that is worth eating! and nothing that i like. or is eatable. ateable. you know what i mean.

bah.

girl scout cookiesss.

XD

I haven't been sad. but im not happy. im just there. just, i dont know how to explain? im ok, dont worry but i've just been thinking about how im doing and i just dont have that happyness around me like maybe last yearish. . . yeah. it seems everybody has changed here from last year, from what i knew of them. and no for the better.

im making a sailboat (i think im going to make it into a necklace) in metalsmithing.

that's going to be it for today.

DFTBA!

bananas are good.

so tired. . .

all through practice i was thinking to myself. . .

"THIS IS SOOOO BOGUS."


we learned the the end of act 1. and all of it and didnt do it from start to finish (its really long) sooo. . . i'm going to forget alot of it. . .

awesome!

also there's a guy who looks like the cute version of spock. =]

oeighn jvdsf vjnsd sngvdio vsdnio sd biob jsb

boo

i just want to sleep. . .

# +++ Divide By Cucumber Error. Please Reinstall Universe And Reboot +++ ~Hex

just a quick post because otherwise its just going to be a rant post.



this is actually being posted at 1:13am on a Weds morning. tues just got done. (weds the 13th)


i can't wait to room with someone who likes anime/manga. i'm so tired of feeling silently judged for likeing it. i don't like the stuff that everyone assumes right away that everyone likes! (example, yaoi and so on)the stuff i read are like the books that i read, they have a plot line, the bonus is that i get to see it happening too. the facial expressions are wonderful! i love drawing in this style, and yeah. . .

i cut this part out. . . it dealt with manga/anime stuff and Sarah.
boring stuff really thats old. and what do rants really get me anyway? not far.

also appearately with me being such a big Repo! fan, im suppose to hate the new jude law movie comeing out (repo man) but im pretty stoked. . .

theres so much i want to rant about. but im trying to hold back. lets just try and summarize?
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WHY ARE YOU NOT TALKING TO ME? (are you too busy?).

i feel like such a burden.

yaay song books YAAY! (drowsy chaperone, and company)

what the H am i living for?

why cant i have motivation? please?

i just want happiness.

mainly i want someone to show me the way and say "ok do this and do it as awesome as you can"

i want someone to appreciate me. and the stuff i do. i want to draw pictures for people again.

i want to know that im not a burden to my friends. im sorry that i have NO money and the job to try to combat this, take up my time. and that i have no means of transportation. and the good friends are back home, graduated, or other colleges. (or over seas, or live out of town during break)

im really glad that this roomie is going to work out. (at least i hope i didnt jinks it with that) i just have a good feeling.

i want something to go my way when i want it too.

i wish there were more gentlemen in the world. not nice guys cuz there are them. but mix them with gentlemen? you got a bomb. extra points if they are willing to fight for, and protect you.

and be a nerd. ^-^ <3

sometimes i feel so out of sync.

sometimes i wish i knew how other people think. (the way the think, not what)

sometimes i wish i knew what people were thinking at a point in time.

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that might be a long enough rant.. . was a longer "summery" then i thought it would be.

yeah def longer post then i thought but havent posted for a while.

for doctor who--

WHY WAS TEN SO OOC?!?!

the end.

no. actally no not the end, wtf doctor? where do you get off whining and moaning like a bisssssh* when before you would have gladly have died for anybody? 9 was so much better then you.

im going to end it like that. let the chaos ensue.

The Crumbling Castle

How long can you live with the walls inside you totally white washed?
When will the ugly wallpaper show through the thin covering?
What can you do to stop the self loathing from corrupting your very foundation?

Do you rebuild?
Or let it crumble?

How do you reach the walls?
Do you build more around you?
Or do you build a stronger fortress?

Can you feel the pain of each beat?
Can you hear what is being said?

“Please don’t hurt me.”
Is that what it’s telling you?

“Just keep breathing.”
Is that what it is saying to me?

What do you do when you can’t breathe for yourself?
Do you take a breath and hope?

Do you?

What is hope?

What is real?

this is to you guys out there. all of you. . .

Christmas time is here! yaay! i got a lot of stuff that i wanted. and stuff that i like.

im back to random thoughts again. not much to talk about right now.

except that i noticed that there is people who i do not know following my blog. i dont know, this might seem weird but if you are following my blog could you leave a comment saying hi, something about yourself, why you're reading it, or something? i would like to know who im blogging to other then my family and friends =]

thats just something i'll like to say. =] everybody have a happy Christmas!

I'm a Night Surgen. . .

im so confused, mostly to my blog. well. all to my blog. but i get to see erik when i go back to school! suck it.

those two are not related in any way. and there was no sarcasm there.

CHRISTMAS IS JUST A FEW HOURS AWAY!

my toes are cold.

DFTBA

Searching. . . for what?

REPO! THE GENETIC OPERA IS AWESOME.

ice is cruel.

i wish all the guys here were not . . . i can't say anything without swearing. . . jerkfaces. . .there we can go with that. . .

at least i really haven't met one yet.

why can't there be more nerdfighters?



OH YEAH. Daleks got them.

oh well DFTBA. i'll get more steak when i get more ideas.

oh! so i got in the chorus in Urinetown =]

thats all. other then you should all come. . .